Friday, November 18, 2011

if you like it then you should've put a ring on it

My left ring finger feels noticeably naked most of the time lately. I've been in long term relationships before and there was not even a second thought that something was missing. And I'm not referring to an age-induced belief or compulsion that I should be married by now. There's never been some kind of insistence on my getting married, from myself or others. Actually, my mother and I had a conversation years ago in which she insisted that there was no parental hopes for wedlock...just for happiness. If this happens to mean a marriage, then so be it, but I was told that I was to determine my own recipe for happiness. (As a side note, this is a rather awkward conversation to have with your parents when they've been happily married for over 25 years. I just kept wondering why she was so insistent on making this clear.) ‎

The noticeable nudity of my left ring finger began a few months ago. It's like I can physically feel that something is missing, except that that something has never been there. I am a romantic, but am not unrealistic enough to automatically fall for this crap. However, it seems that from the moment I found the person that I would say yes to when asked that very special question, I have noted the absence on my left ring finger.

Perhaps it's a foreshadowing of the huge rock that will sit there one day?

Or maybe the beginning stage of Alien Hand Syndrome? Am I going to hell if I couldn't stop laughing while watching this?

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